Recalling memories centered around sexualization, assault, and the loss of innocence “Visiones de la memoria” is a body of work exploring the relationship between the body and self, the perspective of trauma on memory, and the camera’s subjective influence.

I became very sexualized by those around me and online at a young age into my teenage years.I was shoved into a world where my being and identity were centered around my body. I could not exist without my body being perceived first, and it became an all-consuming part of my identity that stripped me of the carefree innocence a child should have. Over time these memories and experiences began to warp and what I had locked away came back in waves, appearing when I would least expect them to. Feeling like a stranger in my body, I could not separate what I experienced and how my body and memories held onto that trauma. 

Showing my relationship between my body and the memories it holds, the images show my body layered with objects and projections to construct the distorted space that lives in my memories.  Exposing the clouded perception I made, and the reality at hand, the different elements in the images are symbols of my trauma. Using the camera’s ability to create a visual of the memories and adding a claim creates a sense of truthfulness as each image stands as a physical manifestation and actualization of my memories. Under the layers in each image lie the reconstructed memories to reveal my body's real perspective of trauma. 

Printed using the alternative process of salted paper prints,  I am ingraining into time a physical record of the realization and legitimizing how I felt stripped of my innocence and identity. It allowed me to create a complete space where the association between the body’s experience and trauma existed as a whole. The grainy appearance mimics the feeling of nostalgia and remembrance. Having weight and form and abandoning the usefulness and removed human involvement digital photography has created the salt paper prints can exist as art that was created by inserting my hand-driven my the idea for a physical visualization one can physically see and interact with.